I’m having a “Birthday Blues” attack, not because I aged another year or I keep gaining weight instead of losing it every flipping year but because this is the 2nd year since I came back from Singapore that I had to spend my birthday without that special someone with me. I miss my dad so much that the image of his face on my mind even though it only took a split second to pop out in my head brought me to tears. I miss Chubby in Singapore, I have to admit the love I have for him wouldnt fade away even though it’s not as strong as when we used to be when we first met, I miss the attention my loved ones, my family showered me, the many presents they gave me, the quick phone call when the clock strikes at midnite and sing me an out of tune song of happy birthday, to me that’s the sweetest thing!

Last nite was the 2nd nite I cried myself to sleep, I feel like i’m drowning into a deep loneliness and sadness, I keep telling myself that it doesnt matter that it’s going to be another lonely birthday but then why do I feel so depressed? I wished that time would pass quickly so I could say it’s over and i’m 29 now and birthday is just a time passing just like new years.

I do envy those who could spend their birthdays with their loved ones, their family and even some could spend their birthday in a frivolous way and spending lots of money to invite friends. I am broke and I cant even cheer myself up by buying myself my own simple birthday present! But i’m still gratefull to God that I still have few who really matter to me and they care about me. My bestfriend Connie (Bless her) has always been there for me even after years we’ve been friends, maybe because our birthdays fall in the same month of September, maybe because we have the same zodiac sign, maybe because we have lots in common, but I think it’s not that. I’m sure we care about each other, our friendship is more than just about having fun when we do have money, but we have tried to be there for each other through good times and bad times, we cry and laugh together, we talk about everything and most of all we trust each other.

Since her birthday comes first on the 11th of Sept, I want to say to my most precious best friend on earth! Thank you for being a great friend, a good shoulder to cry on, to share stories, to cherish memories, thanks for your fun and loving ways that you are, thanks for being you and most of all thanks for everything! I love you!

I’m sorry i’m broke now so I cant give you any present and I trully feel awfull that you gave me a birthday present with the fact that your birthday comes first, but I’ll try to make it up to you next time and so I cant thank you enough for what you did.

Thanks also for my sweet niece who is the only one I think that remembers my birthday hahahaha and she gave me a music jewellery box. You’re so sweet and you’re both really touch me straight in the heart. I Love You.